Okay, this is not a post about Aikido per say...but more of what I'm doing to prepare to return to training after about 4-5 months of very little or no training at all.
Well its been a bit of a rollercoaster of a year, but the surgery to remove the endometriosis went well. I feel a lot better, but still have along way to go yet! Not to sound wimpish or anything, but it still hurts (a bit, anyway) which is normal, I guess- after all I have had my insides cut up and mashed about.
So, onto the aikido link....
I want to go back like THIS week, not in five weeks time (sulks, stamps feet). Hmmm, a much recurring theme this impatient streak of mine, need to work on that a bit me thinks. And yes, I know what you're thinking 'Are you mad woman? You've had two lots of surgery and want to go back immediately!
Guess this shows a little bit of a sadist tendency, but if you've ever been off the mat for a while, you'll know exactly how I'm feeling right now (think of a caged tiger crossed with a bear who has a sore head and you've got it in one)
I have a 'return to training' plan (mentally anyway), since I have not done any ukemi for about five months, my plan is to start completely from the beginning, as a beginner would- and hopefully this will allow me to finally nail that forward roll! I also plan on getting back into the pool in a couple of weeks- I'm sure all the swimming I did before the operation has helped in my stomach muscles knitting together fairly quickly.
I guess I could take it easy, but I don't really want to. I feel a lot better than I have in a long time.But at the same time, I do have to be sensible, I don't want to go back to square one again. It's very tempting to go back this coming week though....
It's hard to really know what draws us to the dojo regardless of what martial art you practise. It certainly isn't the bruises, cuts, or shoulder dislocations! There is a beautiful attraction about the tatami (especially if its empty) that sort of draws you in, like a magnet and whispers to you 'go on, do it!' Or maybe its just me.
