I found myself asking this question a few weeks ago when re-newing my PI (Personal Insurance) for the coming year. On the application, it asked me to fill in what grade I was currently at, where and when I graded. I got a bit of a shock when I realised that it was 2008 since I last graded- more or less two years ago.
Eep! That seems a long time ago, and the truth of the matter is I've not entered for the last two gradings because I felt it was too soon, I've moved clubs, changed styles-I just felt I wasn't good enough for 1st Kyu (Brown).
In the last few months, I've felt that I really should bite the bullet, the people I graded with are now one or even two belts higher than me now.
So, how does this make me feel you may ask? Strangely enough, I don't mind people becoming higher belts than me, I just feel that perhaps I'm trying to 'duck' out if you will, like a form of grading procrastination. Oh- and did I also mention that I hate exams/tests?
Or is putting off gradings a form of 'grading procrastination'? Surely if I don't feel ready, then I'm not ready for that next grade? Am I just comparing myself to others too much?
Hmmm-not sure on this point. If I'm honest, probably a mixture of all three! Still, I think in another six months or so I should feel that I'm ready for that next stage. Guess I'll have to wait and see.
2 comments:
I don't think you ever feel truly 'ready'... part of testing is reaching above your comfort zone. We look at testing as being ready to train at that next level, not so much that you're 2nd kyu or 1st kyu, etc. It's a way of continuing to move forward and not plateauing. Mentally and physically.
Good luck on your test when you decide to go for it!
Osu!
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